There is a passion within us that runs through our lives. This is a passion for something else that we cannot express or put into words. An emptiness that longs to be filled. A darkness that needs a light.
When we are absent from God's Love, Grace and Forgiveness we feel this passion.
It's the passion for God.
When I pray (Something I need to do more often) I often pray that I would want to want God.
This simply means that I don't feel like I want God, so I pray that I would want to want Him.
I think when our lives are going smooth we lay God aside because we don't want him at that moment.
We think we don't need him.
We could not be further from the truth; we must want God at all times. That's why I have to pray.
I have to pray for that passion to be inside again.
Trials are a good thing. It's good for us to be beaten down, sorrowful. Sometimes it's good to cry.
Because when we cry we cry out to someone, and that someone answers.
I've learned that God isn't always hasty.
When I pray for something, I want immediate answers. I want my problem to be fixed within the hour.
I close my eyes tight and I say; "Okay God, when I wake up in the morning I want all of this to be fine. Right?"
Well, it doesn't happen that way. We don't get immediate fixes unless God wants to work a miracle.
All trials and hard times come to an end for good.
So when we pray and ask for passion, we're really asking for a trial.
Whatever you do, don't ask for patience. I made that mistake and God made me a very patient person.
Let me tell you something...it drove me crazy. But it worked. I prayed for something, I got a trial and it worked.
I think God sees us praying and He says to himself; "Look at Alec down there, praying for patience. Well, if he needs to be patient he's going to need something to be patient about..." And so it starts.
The cool thing about Trusting God is that we know without a thought that he is Trustworthy. He knows me better than my mirror. He knows exactly what I need, when I need it and when I need it and how much of it I need.
When we think he's not there, that passion is growing. God doesn't just go, "Oh, okay, you want this fixed? Here ya go buddy! Have fun!" He sets out a journey for us, and then he guides us along it. When we ignore his way we fall, and he patiently helps us pick ourselves up. He sends us joy for strength, passion for energy and makes sure our focus is not on our own feet, but on him.